JOHN CASWELL

may the bridges I burn light my way

the rants and rambles of a frustrated creative
art - cartography - Lalochezia
welcome
The life of a frustrated creative is a curious one. On the one hand you are never satisfied and on the other you know (through crazy optimism) literally anything can happen.
Drawing conclusions - never opinions
This is where I get the chance to explain myself. It won't work but at least I get to share my passions for photography and drawing maps.

Every day I wake up wanting to do something different - that's hard. What I did yesterday is done. I have a fresh shot - I rode that ghost horse - I burned that bridge. What did I learn?

Riding A Ghost Horse Across A Burning Bridge

People get something very different from the burning bridges phrase. I'm good with that. It's the whole point really. It's informed me and my life for a long time. It's about learning - let every experience I have light my way. It's about making better and better decisions - which bridges to burn and all that. It's about never standing still - cutting off from what was - and being present and ready for what will be.

It's about the illumination of the path from a position of some experience but NEVER presuming that I'm right - about anything. It's about making people think. I get a lot of people unsure about the phrase so I get to explain it.

Here.

BEING A CREATIVE
...because normal people scare me
(Oh, and bridge burning is a metaphor...)
Why I Burn Bridges

Why #1 - To make peace with my past so it won't disturb my present.

Nothing seems worth holding on to really. Learn and move on. Experience everything fresh - in the moment. I've been pretty restless most of my life. Never really happy with now. 'What else?' has always been my mantra. Much later I found out the cause.

Creativity.

"Creativity is inventing, experimenting, growing, taking risks, breaking rules, making mistakes, and having fun." – Mary Lou Cook

Turns out being creative carries a heavy tax.

Solitariness, obsession, randomness, frustration and impatience. That goes right alongside passion, curiosity and incredible fatigue. Being wrong in a very beautiful - very meaningful way. I need the solitary.

"To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong." – Joseph Chilton Pierce

Why #2
Because what other people think of me is none of my business.

It was a liberating moment - maybe 15 years ago now. I try to turn others onto the concept - occasionally. But it's hard work.

"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different…" - C.S. Lewis
Why #3
Time heals everything - it gives me time.

I prove this 'why' to myself each and every day. Just leave it and let it take its course whatever it is. I no longer waste my life carrying the pain or stress around. Try it.

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